Had discussion with my friend and here are the lessons I learned:

1. When somebody tells you their shames or secrets, that doesn’t make you have right to insult them or joking around with them by making fun out of it. Not everyone likes it because somehow that means you screw the trust they have on you.

2. We simply will never ever have a chance in life to really put on somebody else’s shoes, that means we’ll never have a chance to see things in their perspective, so how can we really understand their lives better than they do? There’s a quote says

It’s an arrogance to think we know somebody’s life better than they do - Peter Buffett

3. Things change, people come and go, so do the best in every chance, bring happiness to anyone who’s stopping by in our lives.

4. Be grateful, for the things you haven’t done and you’ve done, no following words, simply just be grateful. Gratitude can see small things that are actually evidences that God loves us, that we are worthy, and that we keep on making progress.

RR/170914
#photograph #mobilephotography #mobilephoto #sky #skyporn #cloud #cloudporn #personal #river #water #landscape #nature #boat #view #panorama #thought #sillhoutte #lessons #beautiful #amazing #contemplation #thinking #palembang #indonesia

Had discussion with my friend and here are the lessons I learned:

1. When somebody tells you their shames or secrets, that doesn’t make you have right to insult them or joking around with them by making fun out of it. Not everyone likes it because somehow that means you screw the trust they have on you.

2. We simply will never ever have a chance in life to really put on somebody else’s shoes, that means we’ll never have a chance to see things in their perspective, so how can we really understand their lives better than they do? There’s a quote says

It’s an arrogance to think we know somebody’s life better than they do - Peter Buffett

3. Things change, people come and go, so do the best in every chance, bring happiness to anyone who’s stopping by in our lives.

4. Be grateful, for the things you haven’t done and you’ve done, no following words, simply just be grateful. Gratitude can see small things that are actually evidences that God loves us, that we are worthy, and that we keep on making progress.

RR/170914
#photograph #mobilephotography #mobilephoto #sky #skyporn #cloud #cloudporn #personal #river #water #landscape #nature #boat #view #panorama #thought #sillhoutte #lessons #beautiful #amazing #contemplation #thinking #palembang #indonesia

Curhatan Si Lampu Imigran

Sudah tujuh hari berada di sini. Perjalanan dari bagian selatan pulau Kalimantan, Indonesia menuju ke negara ini cukup menyenangkan. Aku terbeli dengan harga yang cukup tinggi oleh seorang pria murah senyum namun berwajah sendu, di bawa ke negara yang setauku saat ini mengalami musim gugur. Perjalanannya menyenangkan, aku di perlakukan dengan hati-hati, terbungkus oleh kain tebal seperti bahan selimut, bohlamku di lepaskan untuk mengurangi risiko pecah, aku dimasukkan dalam sebuah kotak kayu berwarna coklat yang sangat nyaman. Penerbangan belasan jam tidak berasa di atas pangkuannya, kecuali diwaktu-waktu saat dia kadang mendengkur. Tapi secara keseluruhan pembeliku sangat berselera tinggi. Di sini saat malam bisa menjadi begitu dingin, untungnya aliran listrik membuatku menyala, memancarkan cahaya dan kalor yang cukup untuk menyelamatkan diriku sendiri dari proses penyusutan yang dalam puluhan tahun akan meleburkan partikelku.

Tugasku (yang menjadi kesenangan) adalah menerangi sebagian besar meja berukuran 125x75 cm ini, saat siang hari pemilikku tidak membutuhkanku karena cahaya dari matahari bahkan cukup untuk menerangi seluruh ruangan. Meja ini di letakkan persis di depan jendela tinggi berdaun pintu dua dari kaca, lebarnya hampir dua meter, dengan pemandangan menjanjikan di luar yang tak pernah aku liat sebelumnya. Jalanan aspal yang dibangun di atas hamparan rumput hijau dan diapit oleh deretan pohon pinus kecil. Seperti cerita di dongeng, di kejauhan, garis cakrawala tidak lurus melainkan naik turun sebagai wujud dari siluet pegunungan. Mungkin Alpen, tapi aku tidak yakin. Saat siang hari garis cakrawala menjadi pembatas antara kapas-kapas putih di langit biru dengan warna bumi di bawahnya yang masih terdominasi oleh warna hijau dengan intensitas yang berbeda-beda. Saat senja seperti sekarang, cakrawala menjadi pembatas tipis antara lembayung senja langit dengan warna hijau kemerahan bumi akibat pantulan cahaya matahari. Warna hitam aspal seperti menjadi garis tebal yang sesekali berkelok sejauh mata memandang. Salah satu kelokannya menuju menara yang terletak di tepi sungai kecil yang jernih (aku tidak tahu menara apa namun di sebelah kanan jendela terlihat puncaknya yang kerucut mencuat di antara pepohonan lebat).

Jam kayu persegi berukuran kecil dengan kaki-kaki dari perak berbentuk tutup pasta gigi di letakkan disebelahku (aku menyukai irama tik tok jarumnya, sangat anggun, seperti berusaha memperlambat jalannya waktu) sudah menjadi teman dekatku, mungkin aku akan jatuh cinta padanya kalau tidak melihat tulisan romawi MCMVII di punggungnya. Kau tahu maksudku? Aku belum berusia satu tahun semenjak aku di produksi dan dia sudah hidup dari tahun 1907, aku rasa dia adalah nenek buyutku.

Sekarang si jam menunjukkan pukul 17.10, dalam waktu dua puluh menit aku akan di nyalakan, dan..sebentar, itu suara langkah kaki pemilikku, hey kenapa dia datang secepat ini? Tidak biasanya. Nah itu dia, membuka pintu, melangkah pelan, dengan wajah sendunya, ke arah meja tempatku di letakkan. Dan… Oke, sekarang aku hanya bisa menatap kemeja biru-malamnya (jangan tanya aromanya, aku tidak bisa mencium bau parfum, aku tak punya hidung!). Ini adalah kebiasaannya, berdiri menatap pemandangan selama beberapa menit sebelum duduk dan diam-hey, tidak, aku salah, kali ini hanya beberapa detik, dan sekarang dia tidak diam, dia mengambil secarik kertas lusuh berwarna kuning dan pena coklat dari sudut yang biasanya tidak mendapat peneranganku.

Dia menyambungkan kabelku ke listrik dan aku pun memancarkan cahaya, sekarang dia memejamkan mata, aku merasa tersinggung karena mungkin cahayaku terlalu keras dan menyilaukan. Oh tidak, dia ternyata sedang berpikir. Alis matanya hampir menyatu akibat kening yang berkerut, dia sedikit mendongak dan mengatup rapat bibirnya, keadaan sangat hening kecuali irama tiktok dari nenek buyut di sebelahku. Aku masih menunggu.

Matanya terbuka, dan sedikit berair, aku mencoba menguatkan cahayaku untuk memastikan apakah dia menangis-nenek buyut mendelik tajam dengan tatapan “kau kepo sekali” aku merasa bersalah maka aku menormalkan intensitas cahayaku.

Dia memijat jarak antara mata dengan jempol dan telunjuk kanannya. Aku rasa aku baru saja mendengar isakan kecil. Dia menarik nafas dalam, sambil menatap kelangit senja di luar sana. Pria ini sekarang menunduk menatap kertas kuning lusuh di depannya, mengambil pena yang tadi tergeletak dan mulai menulis.


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“This time I am writing along with my big ego, for somebody, across the sea.”


It is so sad that your love is conquered by your own fear of the fact that you do love me.

It is so sad the eye-to-eye meeting, those deep warm conversations, the fact that you and I complete each other are drowned out by your innocence

It is so sad that you kill your own happiness by the confusion that you thought you had your first love but turn out now I am your first love yet you can’t accept that.

It is so sad that your logic burns out your heart voice that whispers my name all the time.

It is so sad that you don’t know who you are and you don’t let your love teaches you to know yourself.

It is so sad, that in the end of the day, you think about me and you just don’t realize that’s because you miss me

It is so sad, that you let your ego fight against your spoiled behaviour and your comfort being with me.

It is all so sad, but It doesn’t change the fact that I love you.

And behind all these sadnesses, there’s a truth. The truth that eventhough you don’t realize it, eventhough you don’t show it to me, and eventhough this truth will not come up to the surface as a fact. This truth will always be there, the truth that you love me, there deep inside your coward heart.

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Kemudian dia menuliskan sesuatu yang begitu kecil di ujung kanan bawah kertas, aku tak bisa membacanya. Dia meletakkan penanya, tersenyum tipis, puas namun tenang. Bangkit dari kursinya berjalan keluar.

Aku menatap nenek buyutku, dan dengan keanggunannya yang tak lekang oleh waktu (sangat sulit mengucapkannya karena memang dia tak lekang oleh waktu meskipun dia bekerja dengan waktu) dia menarik nafas, menghela (tanpa menyela sedikitpun irama tik-toknya) dia berkata

"Sudah bertahun-tahun aku disini menyaksikannya menulis ribuan hal, namun ini pertama kali dia menuliskan berdasarkan egonya"

RR/160914

Biside, a short movie about bipolar. So blessed that i had chance to take part.
It’s been great working with you @vandamutiara
#film #movie #video #work #bipolar #tv #lovestory #act #acting #actor #actress #fight #kiss #sad #mad #romance #art
#shortmovie #indonesia #couple #proud #blessed #art #artist #job

People come and go, things always change, so do the best in every chance, bring happiness to anyone who is stopping by in our lives - JoshJackson
#photograph #mobilephotography #mobilephotography #nature #landscape #panorama #view #farm #field #skyporn #sky #cloud #cloudporn #explorejogja #yogyakarta #quote #quotes #lifequotes #grass #green #sun #sunset #beautiful #amazing #goodmorning #indonesia

People come and go, things always change, so do the best in every chance, bring happiness to anyone who is stopping by in our lives - JoshJackson
#photograph #mobilephotography #mobilephotography #nature #landscape #panorama #view #farm #field #skyporn #sky #cloud #cloudporn #explorejogja #yogyakarta #quote #quotes #lifequotes #grass #green #sun #sunset #beautiful #amazing #goodmorning #indonesia

Chase the goals, but remember to live in the present & be aware enough about the little things which are blessings so we can always be grateful & motivated enough, otherwise the ambitions & pressure will take place then once gratitude is forgotten, fear and hopelessness set in.
-JoshJackson (@berujarkata)

#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #sky #skyporn #bridge #musi #river #water #sungaimusi #boat #nature #landscape #view #panorama #beautiful #ampera #palembang #indonesia #quote #quotes #words #message #wise #life #motivate #amazing #blue #pink

Chase the goals, but remember to live in the present & be aware enough about the little things which are blessings so we can always be grateful & motivated enough, otherwise the ambitions & pressure will take place then once gratitude is forgotten, fear and hopelessness set in.
-JoshJackson (@berujarkata)

#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #sky #skyporn #bridge #musi #river #water #sungaimusi #boat #nature #landscape #view #panorama #beautiful #ampera #palembang #indonesia #quote #quotes #words #message #wise #life #motivate #amazing #blue #pink

Learned a little how to produce Batik this morning, i drew an abstract pattern, i named it “Flower Of Brokenheart”

#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #art #creative #flower #painting #paint #batik #canting #heartbroken #brokenheart #explorejogja #yogyakarta #indonesia #culture #heritage #pattern #drawing #draw #heart #love #poetic #poetry #poet #poem

Learned a little how to produce Batik this morning, i drew an abstract pattern, i named it “Flower Of Brokenheart”

#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #art #creative #flower #painting #paint #batik #canting #heartbroken #brokenheart #explorejogja #yogyakarta #indonesia #culture #heritage #pattern #drawing #draw #heart #love #poetic #poetry #poet #poem

I think when i am alone it’s good to let my ego comes up to the surface and let it play around, sing along to the high self-pride songs, dance to the wild-arrogant musics, let my smile turn into grimace, stand tall and feeling taller, chin up, and nodding my head, close my eyes and keep jumping, speak the words out loud, be confident like we’re having a speech moment and everyone is paying attention, do it like i’m truly so truly living my dream life to the fullest imagination. Take some time to do it, until i feel satisfied and tired, and of course eventually i will have confidence and worthyness cleaner, and bigger.

After that i let the ego dive in again. And back to connect to the soul. I’m usually gonna feel so good and motivated.

RR
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #personal #thought #think #thinking #contemplation #nature #landscape #twilight #reddish #sky #skyporn #tree #shadow #sillhoutte #explorejogja #kaliurang #beautiful #amazing #words #grey #blue #pastel #panorama #view

I think when i am alone it’s good to let my ego comes up to the surface and let it play around, sing along to the high self-pride songs, dance to the wild-arrogant musics, let my smile turn into grimace, stand tall and feeling taller, chin up, and nodding my head, close my eyes and keep jumping, speak the words out loud, be confident like we’re having a speech moment and everyone is paying attention, do it like i’m truly so truly living my dream life to the fullest imagination. Take some time to do it, until i feel satisfied and tired, and of course eventually i will have confidence and worthyness cleaner, and bigger.

After that i let the ego dive in again. And back to connect to the soul. I’m usually gonna feel so good and motivated.

RR
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #personal #thought #think #thinking #contemplation #nature #landscape #twilight #reddish #sky #skyporn #tree #shadow #sillhoutte #explorejogja #kaliurang #beautiful #amazing #words #grey #blue #pastel #panorama #view

Two nights ago, i was about to sleep and actually been wondering for quite long time why have i been feeling so disconnected like i lost my focus and motivation and also maybe my faith, then that night i realized that i had been chasing things too hard and the obsession got me lost my gratitude, losing gratitude means i could barely see the blessings and answered part of prayers and finally i kinda was drowned in hopelesness.

Im happy now i found the answer. So now kinda busy recalling memories, momentums, recalling defining and aha moments, the time when biggest dream were calling, recalling the desires and passion, recalling those inspiring discussions with great people to gain my spirit back. 
Wish me luck you guys. Thanks. Stay positive. Smile because God loves you.

RR
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #iphoto #sky #plants #bluesky #skyporn #water #river #cloud #cloudporn #palembang #personal #thought #think #thinking #words #message #view #nature #boat #amazing #landscape #beautiful

Two nights ago, i was about to sleep and actually been wondering for quite long time why have i been feeling so disconnected like i lost my focus and motivation and also maybe my faith, then that night i realized that i had been chasing things too hard and the obsession got me lost my gratitude, losing gratitude means i could barely see the blessings and answered part of prayers and finally i kinda was drowned in hopelesness.

Im happy now i found the answer. So now kinda busy recalling memories, momentums, recalling defining and aha moments, the time when biggest dream were calling, recalling the desires and passion, recalling those inspiring discussions with great people to gain my spirit back.
Wish me luck you guys. Thanks. Stay positive. Smile because God loves you.

RR
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #iphoto #sky #plants #bluesky #skyporn #water #river #cloud #cloudporn #palembang #personal #thought #think #thinking #words #message #view #nature #boat #amazing #landscape #beautiful

September 11st 2001

Every loss turns into longing, and for those who have flown up and smiling down from heaven and never go back, their memories are alive forever inside those who miss them.

Every memory that lies inside family, friends, lovers, brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers and children brings enternal love, alive more alive than it has ever been.

RR.
It’s a hard day for you but I’ll stand by you forever.
09/11/01 —- 09/11/14
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #sky #personal #skyporn #cloud #cloudporn #neverforget #0911 #september11 #wtc #MemorialDay #091101 #words #message #longing #loss #nature #usa #nyc #view #panorama #beautiful #memory #usastrong #nycstrong #bluesky #landscape

September 11st 2001

Every loss turns into longing, and for those who have flown up and smiling down from heaven and never go back, their memories are alive forever inside those who miss them.

Every memory that lies inside family, friends, lovers, brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers and children brings enternal love, alive more alive than it has ever been.

RR.
It’s a hard day for you but I’ll stand by you forever.
09/11/01 —- 09/11/14
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #sky #personal #skyporn #cloud #cloudporn #neverforget #0911 #september11 #wtc #MemorialDay #091101 #words #message #longing #loss #nature #usa #nyc #view #panorama #beautiful #memory #usastrong #nycstrong #bluesky #landscape

A young man asks a question to his grandma.
Man: How much time somebody will take to realize that they are in love with somebody?

Grandma: Some doesn’t really take time, they realize it soon.

Some will do when the person they love are already gone. 
Some will do when they realize the person they love are together with someone else.

Some will do when they are themselves together with somebody they don’t love. 
But, nothing is worse than those who do but denying or scared of it, and they will never be really alive until they die.

RR/ 090914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #nature #sky #skyporn #story #love #words #landscape #swimmingpool #pool #poolside #palembang #twilight #goodmorning #beautiful #lovestory #share #view #message #panorama #reflection #purple #red #cloud

A young man asks a question to his grandma.
Man: How much time somebody will take to realize that they are in love with somebody?

Grandma: Some doesn’t really take time, they realize it soon.

Some will do when the person they love are already gone.
Some will do when they realize the person they love are together with someone else.

Some will do when they are themselves together with somebody they don’t love.
But, nothing is worse than those who do but denying or scared of it, and they will never be really alive until they die.

RR/ 090914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #nature #sky #skyporn #story #love #words #landscape #swimmingpool #pool #poolside #palembang #twilight #goodmorning #beautiful #lovestory #share #view #message #panorama #reflection #purple #red #cloud

Somewhere in distance, witnessing your beauty
Somewhere safe & sound, your name is carved inside me
Someone on this earth, should make you happy
Somehow when there’s no one, your last choice i will be

RR/090914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poet #poetic #poetry #nature #landscape #sky #skyporn #view #panorama #mountain #farm #words #message #romance #iloveyou #beautiful #amazing #write #writing #explorejogja #indonesia #merapi

Somewhere in distance, witnessing your beauty
Somewhere safe & sound, your name is carved inside me
Someone on this earth, should make you happy
Somehow when there’s no one, your last choice i will be

RR/090914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poet #poetic #poetry #nature #landscape #sky #skyporn #view #panorama #mountain #farm #words #message #romance #iloveyou #beautiful #amazing #write #writing #explorejogja #indonesia #merapi

Almost is enough. It’s not never enough. 
I love you is enough.
Because love liberates it doesn’t bind
Because love is about loving not having
Because love is love not ego
Because love is feeling, not possession.
Because with sincerity, “I love you” is a total complete sentence.

So i love you, now spread your wings and fly

RR/ 050914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poetry #poetic #poet #message #words #romance #iloveyou #love #nature #water #river #landscape #sky #bluesky #skyporn #horizon #palembang #boat #ark #across #crossing #view #panorama #beautiful #amazing

Almost is enough. It’s not never enough.
I love you is enough.
Because love liberates it doesn’t bind
Because love is about loving not having
Because love is love not ego
Because love is feeling, not possession.
Because with sincerity, “I love you” is a total complete sentence.

So i love you, now spread your wings and fly

RR/ 050914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poetry #poetic #poet #message #words #romance #iloveyou #love #nature #water #river #landscape #sky #bluesky #skyporn #horizon #palembang #boat #ark #across #crossing #view #panorama #beautiful #amazing

If ‘almost’ is never enough, then i’m not gonna let ‘almost’ to happen to us

RR/070914
#photograph #mobilephotography #mobilephoto #poem #poet #poetry #poetic #message #words #romance #heart #creative #art #writing #mood #emotion #puisi #sastra #books #paper #love

If ‘almost’ is never enough, then i’m not gonna let ‘almost’ to happen to us

RR/070914
#photograph #mobilephotography #mobilephoto #poem #poet #poetry #poetic #message #words #romance #heart #creative #art #writing #mood #emotion #puisi #sastra #books #paper #love

I’ll keep you colored, even if the sky is grey and losing flying bird

RR/070914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poetry #poetic #poet #nature #landscape #panorama #view #sky #grey #green #trees #grass #hut #temple #words #message #skyporn #river #water #palembang #romance #beautiful #chinese #tionghoa

I’ll keep you colored, even if the sky is grey and losing flying bird

RR/070914
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poetry #poetic #poet #nature #landscape #panorama #view #sky #grey #green #trees #grass #hut #temple #words #message #skyporn #river #water #palembang #romance #beautiful #chinese #tionghoa

For your completing existence
For your inspiring whispers
For your sweet smile
For your rare tears
For your endless patience
For your detail cares
For your good look
For your positive attitude
For your love and sincerity
For your faith and loyalty
I am grateful

But for nothing i can explain, i love you

RR/ May 2014
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poet #poetic #poetry #message #work #branch #silhoutte #shadow #tree #sky #skyporn #twilight #words #dark #goodmorning #beautiful #amazing #view #nature #landscape #panorama #heart #mood #romance #you #iloveyou

For your completing existence
For your inspiring whispers
For your sweet smile
For your rare tears
For your endless patience
For your detail cares
For your good look
For your positive attitude
For your love and sincerity
For your faith and loyalty
I am grateful

But for nothing i can explain, i love you

RR/ May 2014
#photograph #mobilephoto #mobilephotography #poem #poet #poetic #poetry #message #work #branch #silhoutte #shadow #tree #sky #skyporn #twilight #words #dark #goodmorning #beautiful #amazing #view #nature #landscape #panorama #heart #mood #romance #you #iloveyou